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COUNT COUNT COUNT COUNT COUNT

It does.

Count.

It counts.

Mark down the lines around her.

She counts.

I checked.

There was a small...

No, I checked and she counts and it counts and I want it in the book.

The book is full of little rules you might not have...

No. I did. I have. I have done all the little ones.

You know they don't give the last few the same leeway.

This one doesn't need any leeway. I checked. I had a checklist.

With all the little things?

It was a long list, but yes, all the little things.

I'm going to tentatively mark it.

No. No, that's not right. In the small things, there is no provision for tentative marks. There is a mark and no mark and once a mark is, you aren't allow to erase it.

Well...we should wait on this. Talk about it. See if anyone thinks tentative marks are a good idea.

No. This was done before any rule change. Maybe for the next one, if it's not done before, but I want this one judged under these rules.

That's fair. That's a fair point.

Yes. It is.

I'm sorry, but I don't think I'm going to mark it.

Why?

I don't feel right. And I agree with you, the mark is permanent. If we're going to make a permanent note of this, of her, of you, especially in such a serious and borderline case-

This is not borderline. This is meticulous. This is carefully plotted, specifically marked. This is daring, is what it is, it's daring and without some very intense thought, it wouldn't count because it wouldn't have happened.

I'm sorry.

You're not sorry. This is about history.

History never goes away.

I'm sorry.

You're not. I'm going to go to sleep now.

Will you mark it later?

Probably not. But I'll think about it. And I'll take it into consideration for the next one.

There won't be a next one.

Are you...

Yes.

Will you ever...

No.

But-

Yes. I'll be forever...

Ambiguous.

It's not glory.

But it's close.

Goodnight.

Goodbye.

1 comment:

Anna Nym said...

Beckettesque. Beautiful.